And so, without further adieu, here are the first four song stories.
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You'll Be In My Heart:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u0FXsu82BfoThe view in the morning
"This is the first time I've hitched with someone who has seen me naked" - Jake
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Fairytale Of New York:
A mad sprint from the Balkans to Cornwall in England for Christmas. A lot of days standing in the rain trying to get up to Slovenia. A lot of days standing out in the cold thumbin' it West towards France. It didn't take long to get there. A week exploring castles and farm animals. A birthday only 3 can know about. A short plane ride and then a short train ride and we're walking into Jake's kitchen at 5am on his birthday. They didn't know we were coming so they were all surprised to see us especially since it was Jake's birthday. And then we celebrate. It's Jake's birthday, mine just passed, and Christmas is coming. We celebrate and have a good time and I stay with them for nearly a month. And the whole while 🎶 The boys of the NYPD choir Still singing "Galway Bay" And the bells were ringing out For Christmas day 🎶
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I'm Like a Bird:
"Harrison, someone is here for you,"
I didn't look up from sweeping the floor when he said that. I just kept on until I finished the job. I don't know the name of the man who'd come to tell me that. I just knew that he wears leather bound sandals with socks. He sits three spots forward and one to the right of me in meditation. It's strange being somewhere for 10 days and never talking to the people you're there with. It's strange not talking at all for three days. No talking, no reading, and no writing. You can't make eye contact, use gestures, or touch in anyway. It was strange having a roommate for that long, not being able to talk about what temperature to set the room at or any of those sorts of things. It was the 11th day. We could speak again. Some people went to it like a fish to water, but the silence still held dearly to a few. Those 10 days had seemed like so much more. Not just how they'd effected us, but 10 days of nothing but meditation? I feel like I spent a year there in rural Southern Georgia. So when sandals and socks had come to tell me that someone was here for me I knew it was no one else but my mother. She had happened to be in Georgia the same time I was. I was excited, incredibly excited, but I didn't let the usual giddiness that comes with that show. I wasn't quite in real world mode yet and Vipassana always hits me hard. I slowly finished sweeping methodically then put the broom and dustpan away and walked out the door. Across the little courtyard and into my room where I grab my already packed pack. Then I walk out and see my mother standing there. I don't say anything. In those short 10 days I'd been conditioned to keep my silence. It felt like a big step looking at her in the face and making eye contact. She asked all the normal questions and I responded distantly with a yes or a no as my mind was still lost in itself a little bit. Once we clambered into the car it started to become more and more real. I was done with the 10 day sit. I couldn't believe it actually, I'd made it through. I'd made it through the entire silent 10 days. When Kate had told me this was the hardest thing she'd ever done in her life I hadn't believed her. But now I did. Holy shit, how I believed her now. And I still believe her, this had been the hardest thing I'd ever done in my life. Even looking back now that is still the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. Harder than walking the 2,200 mile Appalachian Trail, harder than hitchhiking all around America alone, and harder than working on the fishing boats in Alaska. It wasn't just hard, it fell on the brink of sending me into that chasm that is insanity. But somehow I'd managed to save my mind through the whole thing and come out much better than I had come in. Sitting in the car with the Georgia pines flying by outside, my mom chatting pleasantly about her trip, I started to feel the emotion building up inside of me. I said a word. Then two. And my face burst into the biggest grin and I had no way of controlling it this time. I was talking. Out loud, and someone could hear me and respond. Somehow this made me ecstatic. I needed to talk to people. To hug people, to tell them, actually speak out loud and tell them, how much they mean to me. I could call anyone I wanted now, I had a phone again. I could eat meat again. Meat! The first place we find is Taco Bell and I go in for the biggest, meatiest burrito they have. As I walk in I'm sure the culture shock is palpable on my face. But not because of the people, it was because of the music. It was just some music playing in a restaurant, no biggie. But to me, to me it was more. To me it was angels ringing bells and the way a long lost sailor feels when he sees land again. It was ecstasy, pure, flawless ecstasy. My whole body burst into vibration feeling the sound set it moving 🎶 I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away. I don't know where my soul is, I don't know where my home is 🎶....
My meditation group
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My meditation group
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Old Pine:
Crazy Frogg
Do you remember listening to Old Pine in hot springs after we came back for that second
night?
Hiking into Hot Springs two days before was ludicrous,
but we both knew that didn’t we? It still feels like that day because my knees still cry out
and my ankles still tremble when I walk. Dragging our feet
up to the Laughing Hart looking every bit as weary as we felt. That stranger
giving us each a beer as congratulations. You and I believed ourselves immortal.
Taking the next day off was bliss. But then,
how painful it was climbing the cliffs to get out of town. Climbing those sandy rocks
by the river with the mountain laurel waiting to bloom. Getting lost
at Lovers Leap before meeting Hammer and Little Wing. I convinced you
to go back to Hot Springs with me, just one more night. And so we found ourselves
out by the river, two days after hiking into town, sneaking into a camp bathroom
to charge our phones. You said it would rain, but I wanted to cowboy
and laid down my ground cloth. We shared dinner, tortillas and cheese, while listening
to Old Pine. Something about that song then and there hit us both
hard. I’d only known you for three days really, but we could both feel that song,
hurting us deep down in our hearts respectively. And we laid down to sleep
with our white breath puffing out of sleeping bags and our hearts still aching
from miss and loss,
when a star ripped through the night sky, cutting
like a shark fin above the surface














